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November 21, 2019 by Allie O'Bray

A letter to my daughter – after 7 years of Infertility.

A letter to my daughter – after 7 years of Infertility.

Dear Sawyer,

I feel like this letter is something I’ve dreamed about writing to you my entire life. I’ve pictured what it would be like to hold you, to kiss you, to make memories with you for so long. Today is the last day until this dream becomes a reality.

It’s hard to grasp the concept that it’s really happening that you will be here so soon. That our family will be 3 people instead of just 2.

In the last 7 years of trying to bring you into this world I have learned so much. I begged and pleaded with God to let me have you, but I had to wait until it was the right time. Waiting wasn’t easy it was a long and painful journey.

Infertility taught me so many things. It taught me how to be patient and trust God and the Universes timing. It’s not about what I want right now. It’s about manifesting my dreams and trusting that everything will work out in the end regardless of the current circumstance. I trusted he would give me you, at some point I knew you would be mine I just didn’t know when.

It taught how to be a good mom even before I became one. My biggest goal in life is to be a good person. I strive every day to be better than I was yesterday. I want to teach you that. I want you to know that one of the most important things we can do in this life is to be an honest, kind, loving person to everyone we meet. To have a heart that is full of love for others.

I want you to know how much you are loved and adored. You are wanted and you will always be appreciated by your dad and I. We have waited so many years for you. All of the shots, the medications, the surgery, the fertility treatments, the endless count of doctor visits and tests, the millions of tears, the shattered pieces of our hearts it was ALL WORTH IT. Everything was worth it. I would do it all again with zero hesitation if it gives me you.  You are so deeply loved. More than words can even say.

I will never take you for granted and I will always be there for you no matter what. I can’t promise you will always like me but I will do whatever is best for you in every situation we are faced with. I will fail time and time again, and I won’t be a perfect mom not even close. But I will learn along the way, we both will. I will never stop trying.

I will be your best friend, someone you can always talk to about anything without judgement. I want our relationship to be an open book with trust and communication.

You are the missing piece that my heart has been longing for, and I want you to realize that you are now the center of our world.

I will teach you how strong you are, you can reach any and every goal you set your mind to. You are capable of literally anything you want to succeed at. I never want you to doubt your self worth. You are worthy of great things in this life. Never settle for less than you deserve. And you deserve the world.

Please remember having a beautiful heart is far more important than having a beautiful face.

You are the answer to hundreds of prayers Sawyer girl. I have waited 31 years to meet you. I can not wait to hold you in my arms tomorrow. You are the reason I was put on this earth.

Love,

Your Mom

October 22, 2019 by Allie O'Bray

My Daughters Cute Farmhouse Pink Floral Nursery.

Hi friend. Thanks for stopping by the blog today. I can’t believe I am finally sharing this blog post our floral nursery. We are scheduled to have our daughter 4 weeks from today. It’s absolutely unreal. I still can’t fully wrap my head around the fact that in 1 month I will be a mom. Infertility will do that to you. It will make it so you can’t even imagine actually having a child. I have a HUGEEEE belly and feel my daughter moving all the time but it still doesn’t feel 100% real. How is that possible?

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July 16, 2019 by Allie

The Perfect Idea For Ultrasound Pictures and Nursery Decor

 

Hi friend. Thank you for stopping by the blog today. If you have been following me for a while you know that we have struggled with infertility for a long time. And after 7 years we finally got pregnant with our IVF miracle baby girl. So I have been DIYing everything and making so many nursery decorations to prepare for our sweet babe. So I am going to show you a fun DIY nursery project to display your ultrasound pictures. If you want to see one of my favorite blog posts with tons of nursery inspiration take a look at 9 baby girl nursery ideas.

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May 24, 2019 by Allie

Our IVF Process and Journey to Becoming Pregnant After 7 Years of Trying.

 

Hi friend. Thanks for coming to the blog today. I am going to be very vulnerable and real with you. And share the O’Bray IVF process. It’s been a long road and one that has many tears. It means the world to me that you are interested in our story and our journey on this bumpy Infertility/IVF process road.

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April 26, 2018 by Allie

What do you do when Infertility has stolen your life?



What do you do when Infertility has stolen your life?

This blog post is completely raw and very vulnerable. With it being National Infertility Awareness Week I wanted to write a quick post about our most recent trials and bring some insight regarding infertility. If you don’t have infertility chances are you know someone who does. 1 in 8 couples have it. How crazy is that? I know many couples that have struggled with infertility but not many people talk about it.


I get it, I understand why a lot of people grieve in silence. But it shouldn’t be that way, you don’t have to! I am super open to talk about our infertility journey over the years it has helped me grow in more ways than I can say. I still don’t understand completely why God gave me this trial. Hopefully one day I will.

The main reason I wanted to share our story is to let other people know it’s ok to feel broken, it’s ok to get jealous, it’s ok to be angry, and it’s ok to take a break from treatments if you have emotionally had enough.

After nearly 6 years of trying to have a baby, 2 failed IUI’s, 1 Infertility surgery that had no positive impact in the end, countless medications, multiple miscarriages.. it’s ok to not be ok. It’s ok to say I have had enough I can no longer continue with treatments at this time.


I feel like over the years Infertility has stolen my life, it has stolen my happiness, and it has stolen my faith. In the most recent months Tyson and I have finally found clarity and been able to make a conscious decision to stop letting infertility run our entire lives. It was all I thought about literally every single day, it consumed me.

I have told myself through out the years that I may never have my own child in this life, and that’s ok. Once I started actually believing it is the moment I felt free. I am enough, being a wife is enough. Having a loving marriage with someone who adores me is enough!

I am not saying giving up is the right option for everyone. But taking a break from treatments was the right decision for us. It has ultimately lead to a life where I am not constantly stressed and heartbroken. That is no way to live.

I chose to not let infertility control my happiness anymore. I chose to take back my life. I chose to love my husband everyday with every fiber of my being because together we have an incredible life. I am not saying we will never go back down the road of trying to have our own baby, because God’s plan is always greater than mine.

So what do you do when infertility has stolen your life? What I did was take a step back to reevaluate things and choose to be happy every single day. Choose to live life with a grateful heart. Make that decision for you and your spouse. In end that’s what matters.


 

Find something that you are passionate about and jump all in. There are so many things that I focus on because I am passionate about them. Home Decor, and Crafts are what I love to do so I found a way I can do that full time.  Recently Tyson and I have found a passion for traveling and we are blessed that we get to travel the world and experience so many beautiful cultures and places.

If you are going through infertility you are not alone. I love hearing from my readers and connecting with people. If you ever need a listening ear I am only an email away. Thanks for stopping by today friends. Happy National Infertility Awareness Week. You never know who is struggling with infertility it may even be your best friend.

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January 5, 2018 by Allie O'Bray

I am 1 in 8.

It is a new year and a new start.  So can I be real and honest with y’all for a minute?! I am so thankful for what 2017 has brought to my family. Tyson and I have had one heck of a ride it has absolutely been the most difficult year of our lives. I am 1 in 8. What exactly does that mean? 1 in 8 couples struggle with infertility. Isn’t that crazy to think about?

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I’m Allie. I am a 30 year old living in beautiful Salt Lake City, Utah. I am a wife, DIY addict, interior design fanatic, crafter, lover of all things Rustic, and learning to take my infertility journey 1 day at a time. I can’t wait to share my love for DIY everything & interior design, and the occasional Inferility Awareness post with you. Read More
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